This is not a Facebook blog

So, this is not a blog about Facebook….but….

Isn’t Facebook kind of creepy? I mean, let’s be honest. Here are my “Top 5’s for why Facebook is Creepy”

1. You can subscribe to people. That’s weird. Don’t want to add someone as a friend? Then why not stalk them without the commitment of “add friend”
2. It’s creepy because it “knows” people who “you may know”…
3. Irritated that someone sent you along with 150 of your “friends” a message? Well, now you can officially “leave the conversation”. However, once you leave, everyone will know that you left…and you may hurt some feelings.
4. Everyone knows everything.
5. And finally, too lazy to keep going back to your homepage news feed? No problem, just look at the ongoing “scrolling” on the top right margin of the page. There you will find every comment, “like” and update to feed your curiosity.

However creepiness and all, I still log on. I still update my status, I still look at pictures of my friend’s friends grandmothers yard sale, and I still look at that little ongoing/scrolling news feed in the top right margin. In fact, today I was doing something on Facebook (see, I can’t even remember….it’s a trap people) and I saw that one of my friends commented on her friends status. Normally I’m not SO creepy as to look at what status my friends are commenting on or “liking”….however be that as it may, my curiosity made my little cursor hover over the scrolling right margin…and this is the status update that I read…(from my friend’s friend)

“If you want to build a ship, don’t drum up people together to collect wood and don’t assign them tasks and work, but rather teach them to long for the endless immensity of the sea.” —Antoine de Saint-Exupéry

Now, I’m not usually one who just goes off and quotes random writers without actually having read their books…but in reading this quote and looking at who said it, I knew the name sounded familiar…“Isn’t he that French dude who flew planes and wrote books or something? The Little Prince, right?”  I know, I’ve got some serious class. Anyhow…naivety aside, this quote hit on something deep in my heart and what better place to hash it out, than on a blog…right?

I have been thinking a lot about vision lately and a lot about the dreams and passions that God has placed in my heart. As an ENFP, it is no secret that I am a dreamer at best. I love dreaming, verbally processing about ideas, plans and opportunities. As much as dreaming is wonderful and life-giving, in the same breath it can sometimes feel debilitating because… how is everything supposed to come together?

Thoughts like “I need to be on a team” and “it needs to look like this and have these kinds of people with these kinds of goals and these kinds of giftings” are thoughts that steadily run through my brain as I sit and dream and think and wonder about what God has in mind for the future…because I know that He knows. (Insert a gentle: “please just tell me already” here…that’s probably my urgent personality speaking)

I finish my two-year language study in about a month and a half (which is totally surreal) so, naturally I have been thinking about the future. The word “direction” has been one that frequents my vocabulary (whatever is left of it from language study) and I find myself writing random lists of ideas and dreams in hopes of coming to some grand plan that makes everything up until now “make sense”. These random lists of ideas and dreams have been written on everything from gum wrappers to my Chinese Book. They have been saved as drafts in my email account and if lucky, actually written down in my journal. Actually, I’m pretty sure that I was thinking about some more ideas and dreams right before I “checked my Facebook, got lost in its trap” and noticed that quote….

So as I was being creepy girl on Facebook today, I sit here thankful that God is bigger than my present creepiness.

…back to that quote…

“If you want to build a ship, don’t drum up people together to collect wood and don’t assign them tasks and work, but rather teach them to long for the endless immensity of the sea.”

When I read this, immediately I felt like God was saying to me…

“Anna, you get so focused on the task, the plan, the details…but I want you to long for the endless immensity of the sea that is me”.

There are some decisions that I will need to make about direction and future, and that’s normal because that’s life. But, ULTIMATELY it is about Jesus. As my friend prayed this morning in our Language Team prayer time “Jesus is always better!” He is better than our present victories…better than THE BEST thing in our lives right now. He is better. He knows the decisions we have to make and He is not threatened by the timing of them. He’s not in a rush. He’s not freaking out at our indecision and He doesn’t feel nervous about our questions. He is completely able to handle our burdens, our weariness and our “issues”.

The sweet reminder for me today has simply been this: The longing in my heart should not be for the “what’s next” and for the “what am I going to do?” but for the “Immensity of His Greatness, His Holiness, His Righteousness”.

“But seek first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you”- Matt. 6:33

….And who knows, maybe God will speak to you today via right scrolling column on Facebook 🙂

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